// 奋不顾身的追求能找到什么？

思念不能放开，它就想潮水难以回收，

就算相拥一秒种，就已足够。//

was just thinking that day that I need to start being self-sufficient. realized that the root of my unhappiness from time to time is the reliance on others to make me happy. why should anyone be obliged to satisfy me anyway? I realized that I have always craved to be treated a certain way, and the moment I don't get what I wanted and what I was given before, I get 10x more upset. and whose fault would that be? only mine isn't it?

because I allowed myself to indulge when I was down, and hence it became harder for me to stand up again. Mel, your fault. 

sidenote: just sharing an MV I really love, love the drama and totally in love with RJT! 

我却，无法开口。