So darn insecure, yet I can't seem to do anything bout it.
Don't know why I'm feeling like that. But I just am.
I'm tired of pretending. Don't know how many billion times I've said this but I mean it.
It's so...hard. To just 以微笑带过 and pretend that I'm fine.
Pretend that I really don't mind. I mean, I shouldn't be minding right. Since it's such a small matter.
But I CANT FREAKING HELP IT. This is how insecure I am.
I'm tired of crying too. Over such trivial matters that 90% of other people won't even give a shit about.
Sigh, I've no idea what's with me seriously.
It's different now, really different. I don't like how it changed, thought it wouldn't.
I guess I'm wrong, I guess I expected a lil' too much.
I swear I'm not over-expecting, because I lowered my expectations couple of times alr.
But it just doesn't seem to have any change, the lower my expectations go, the more disappointed I get. What's the point of lowering them anyway?