back from beijing, feels so queer cuz the weather's alot different from there.
home feels a lil' different but i guess it's cuz i've been away for a week? maybe it's just me.
having loads of weird thoughts during the trip, plus the cold weather and all.
i sure had a good break away from Singapore. but it feels good to be home :)


gonna have to keep myself really strong from now on, cant let those small lil things bring me down.
because i'm fighting for something bigger. and greater than anything i've now.
i'm gonna get discouraged time and again but i firmly believe that there really are no boundaries :)
it really isnt gonna be easy, but i wanna press on. thought bout it for the past week.
i'm more than sure. and especially after how mummy said she would never hear of it.


really dont wanna rebel. but if shes not gonna approve of something that means so much to me, idk.
hate this kinda mindset that everyone has. i'm damn thankful of those close friends of mine, team and all who are not against this :) cant thank y'all enough, really :) 
it just hurts, to bear the thought that i might not succeed, i'm determined to try. but will i succeed?
and i'm scared. i swear i'm damn freaking scared. honestly.


i'm hanging on. only because it's worth every single thing i'm doing for it.






going to msia tmr, bball trip :)
mixed feelings tho, especially bout bball. sigh, can someone bring me out of this discomfort?
really dont wanna think too much already, shall just go and enjoy those 5 days :)
and pray hard i dont get sick during or after the trip :)
look out for more updates when i'm back!


toodles :)