我在拼 什么 
在意什么最多
been asking myself that alot.

headed out to orchard today! :)
happygirl95 :):)
didnt get as much as i wanted, didnt get the dreamcatcher for ting either :(
sorry girl we'll go thr during the hols to find kk :)

walked around and checked out a few new stores, and a few not so new ones.
hardly anything caught my eye :/ this shouldnt be happening ._.
guess my mind's really worried bout my fate, which will be revealed on tues and wed.
cant wait for everything to blow over, provided i do well :)
then i'll be in a better mood to shop and all, hopefully :)

tempted to get a few bottles of pretty nail polishes, dont wanna continue using faceshop's.
not like theirs are THAT bad, it's just that i want a change :)
seen some really nice ones these few days, just controlling my temptation.
telling myself i'll only get them if my EOYs results prove that i deserve them :)

thinking so much these few days, subject combis, ccas, etc.
mummy really doesnt want me to continue in basketball anymore.
i kinda sorta dont wanna stay either, but the thought of not being able to be really close with those dear teammies make me feel rather unwilling to leave.
which is why i'm pretty much looking forward to the cca fair on thursday.
wanna see if other ccas have anything good to offer, maybe i'll take up something new.
learn a new skill, get myself another hobby/interest :)
as for combinations, the dilemma btwn physics and biology will never end.
i'll have to decide anyway, and i'll let the EOYs results decide :)

and other stuffs, realized how much i shoved under the carpet during EOYs mugging period.
so many stuffs are coming back now, all those i told myself not to bother about.
i really dont know, i dont know why people judge.
i dont know what to do, but i know i wont let anybody get me down.
suddenly i miss having exams, i'm not kidding.
i know this sounds pretty insane, but i'll miss burying my head in the notes.
and mugging like i've nothing else to do. and spending every single weekend outside feeling productive.
instead of staying home and slacking my ass off.
but most of all, i miss having exams, because i dont have to think bout other things then.
i'll just mug. mug. and mug. thats it. nothing else.

thought i'd have gotten used to this judgement. but well, i've disappointed myself.

-sidetrack: hunghui texted bout team dinner tmr, hope it works out, then hope i can have the courage to talk to them bout the stuffs i wanna talk to them about. i think they're the people who'll really understand and not judge so much. because i believe they know when i'm serious i'm really serious and i wont kid around.

sigh, okay enough of this unhappiness.
whr's the post-EOYs happiness huh?


hey, you'll probably read this.
i know we've agreed a long time ago to get over this. 
but i'm sorry i still get really bothered by things i hear now and then. 
i'm trying my best to block them out already. 
give me some more time yeah? :/