this pressure is getting to hard to take. i dont know when it will all go away.
so many things i want, but so many things to restrain from.
really really tired of these. i hate how people think i can tank.
initially thought i had let that dilemma down after making a decision. but now...
i hate the thought of how you perceive me. if you think i'm not good enough then just tell me.
if i was actually 'good enough' for that offer to be posed, i really dont think it's fair at all to be discouraged all of a sudden, just because i dont have the foundation.
fuck. foundation doesnt = good results.
my math is a splendid example of the good foundation --> no good results.
i'm only left with effectively 2 days. its really so daunting on me.
you all dont know me, it's not just PW in my head i swear.
i wish it was that case however much i complain and rant bout PW.
it's really really hard to be truly happy nowadays.
ironically i dont really want PW to be gone because then my mind will wander.
i'm like blogging my troubles out just to make myself feel better because honestly i dont know who reads my blog and i dont care and dont wanna know anyway.
if whoever wants to judge me, so be it. i'm too busy and tired to care bout people who dont matter.
really thankful for those dears who've already offered a helping hand should i succeed this battle that will end 1nov :) love you girls and i'm thankful i've all of you to rely on :)
and for your sakes, i wont give up now :)
as for PW. it'll be over in a flash i'm really sure. it's already 2 days to OP trial, and another 1 week after that to 8nov :) really hoping it'll be a blast and we can all get our As.
GO 38 :D love you guys :)
and for the other things that are bugging me, hopefully it'll all be over by the time december begins. which means another one month of suffering. come on mel you can do it :D
alright, probably wont be back in this space until after 8nov :)
so looking forward to the date after OP ;)
do look forward too, you're in for a great day! <3
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