this weekend has absolutely not been the best I've had.


mad crazy cramps (the worst I've had in a long time)
had a lil' unhappiness with jh yesterday :/ 
what with WR draft1 to finish in 3hrs time. 
having a stupid dilemma to deal with because I cant make up my mind.
and my stupid brother dropping a plate of rice on me and shouting at me.
when it wasnt even my fault.


sighpie. really hate unhappy moments one after another. 
absolutely no idea how to deal with them. should've just went out with my parents mans.


couldnt sleep till bout 2am this morning. so many things on my mind.
seems to be alot of friction between us now, things that never mattered began to surface.
vividly remember how we promised to keep our temper in check, but somehow...
I dont know how this friction will last for, perhaps it's just the built-up of our stress and unhappiness.
our own personal problems that we couldnt take control of.
and I also know how we really hadn't had time with each other, havent even hung out with you in ages.
it hurts, and I miss you so :/
but I've had so many reduced sleep nights, crying myself to sleep.
I dont want this unhappiness to prolong, it aint supposed to be like this.
I promise to try my very best, because I dont wanna lose this. 
because I dont wanna lose what we have, I dont wanna lose 'us'. 
do promise to try too? :X